HOW CAN I NOT LOVE YOU ?

HOW CAN I NOT LOVE YOU ?

They say attention is the rarest and purest form of generosity, So I hope I can give attention to you, I hope I can listen to you not only when you speak but also when you do not, listen to you to understand and not to retaliate. Finding the dusk in your eyes not assuming that it is sorrow because dusk can be beautiful because for that very moment the sun and the moon are together in the sky, just like us scattered but somehow together. Believe me I have a scattered brain connected by axon to my shattered heart, wandering and hoping eventually all pieces fall into place but when you speak mine fell into love. It is mind that thinks of the dreams more often and the reality to less. But when you speak I hope it remembers that the difference between dreams and reality is life, the difference is huge as well as narrow. And when you are speaking I hope I can not only listen but also see you, truly truly see you beyond my depths, beyond my means, beyond my feelings that I may have imposed onto you. Beyond your feelings, that are sometimes secure, sometimes fleeting. So that I can love you in a way that doesn’t feel like dreams or reality but instead life.  Like wind flowing directionless making its own direction, making whirlwinds that I don’t want you, not us to get caught up into. That I don’t care much about the idea of love but care about you enough. I hope I love you fiercely but fearlessly. They say attention is the rarest and purest form of generosity, but I believe attention is the basic form of love and the most basic form of attention is to acknowledge you exist. And now that you exist how can I not love you.